I have not been a good sister, friend, relative, co worker to those around me because of my insecurities, moods, wrong mindsets etc. It hurts deep to the

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I have not been a good sister, friend, relative, co worker to those around me because of my insecurities, moods, wrong mindsets etc. It hurts deep to the core when I see how much I have hurt my only sister over these years and how much it has severed our close relationship. I feel like an outsider looking into her life and I cant get that closeness back. When I see how families, friends interact I feel like disappearing because I’m not a people person and too many times push others away from me to hide my insecurities. I want people around me but then I don’t because mind feels black then white on too many areas of my life. I’m single, no kids, no real life of my own and i feel like a hamster running around a routine everyday with no growth etc. Persons around me are living and I’m just existing. I’m sorry I such a complicated individual because I don’t want to be. When I look at other people’s relationships, friendships, family life etc. I see how lonely I am and how alone in everything I’m living. I believe in God and His son Jesus but these sins have made me a person trapped in a prison within myself that there are walls around me and I desperately want to be made whole. Made whose spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically so I can live an abundant life with Jesus.

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I live in a two story house. The house beside is a one story rental. A young couple moved in. She is gorgeous. I see her in tiny nighties and mas turbate.

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Last year I had se.x with my friends girlfriend. They broke up not long ago, but not because of that. He still doesn’t know what we did. I’m not going to lie, the first time we did it I lasted about 30 seconds before I eja.culated inside her. She’s just so fu.c.king beautiful, it was like my di.ck wanted to fill her with sp.erm before she had a chance to change her mind. After the first time I was able to go two more rounds and last much longer. I even made her c.um a couple of times. She spent the night in my bed and we had s.ex again in the morning. Yes, I feel fu.cking guilty about it, but I didn’t think their relationship would last anyway (I was right) and we just have a natural chemistry. I hope she doesn’t tell him out of spite. Believe it or not, I really like my friend and I want to stick with him. Thank you for giving me a chance to get this off my chest.