I hate autism so f****** much. Every one wants you to be so happy with your child and its such a blessing. F****** b*******! Its horrible and its never ending and so hard. I love my child forever. But its so hard and it never ever ever ever ends. Ever got mad at a autistic child ? You feel so bad. I am so tired and so not gratefull. I swear I am so close to knocking out some stupid mother fucker for saying and talking about s*** they could never understand. Just shut up! Your words DO NOT HELP. JUST LEAVE US ALONE. IF YOU SEE US AT THE STORE JUST WALK AWAY!!!! NOTHING YOU SAY MAKES IT BETTER. IT JUST MAKES US WANT TO CRY. just leave us alone! It hurts so much. So now comes night 2553 of sleepless guilt of having myself and dread for the morning.
