I made spiteful phone calls many times to an innocent and they had to change their number.

I have nothing but a bad feeling for do it, there is no reason I can think of why i continued to do it for so long.

I deeply regret it although I cannot tell them how sorry I am. and anyway the apology would be a hollow gesture as there is no way I can ever undo.
I don’t want forgiveness, I was cruel and God should just throw me out of his kingdom.