I’m a teenage (16) p*** addict of 6+ years when my 13 year old cousin came to visit something came over me, I ended up taking creepshots of her when she got up to go to the kitchen etc

I put these pictures into a personal spank bank, on discord It’s mostly cartoon p*** of legal characters and apparently something gay too (only I know about it) I never did anything with the creepshots and I just forgot about it as I didn’t wanna look at p*** any more

My brother went into my room and opened my laptop and I must’ve left it on sleep mode

he confronted me about it and said that he would never speak of it again

I feel like the relationship is completely ruined I’m considering just cutting contact with him when he moves out (he’s in his 20s)

As coping mechanisms I thought about eerily turning to religion or something like that

I really don’t know what else to do I’ve been considering suicide because this has most likely changed the way my brother sees me forever, he’s probably gonna live knowing his little brother is a sicko and couldn’t control temptations enough to not take creep shots of his cousin

I really don’t know what to do, he hasn’t made eye contact with me since this morning but he has initiated conversation as if nothing happened.