i think i triggered my friend who got raped by having a discussion about self protection, i didnt mean for it to be about her but she interpreted it that way and i regret letting the discussion go there in the first place and not stop it halfway through. i dont know how to fix it now. she thinks im blaming her but im really not but also i think she puts herself in danger often and i want to know why and i want her to learn she can protect herself and rely on herself but i cant do it for her. it just comes off insensitive and i said it pretty insensitively so i dont blame her. and maybe i shouldnt have brought it up because she wont process it the right way. and i said it the wrong way too. i want to just fix it but she probably needs space, i told her if she is ok with talking i want to apologize but i feel like its too late already. maybe im making it too much about me. i feel like i let her down because i changed my opinion on things and she thinks its privilege but i think my previous opinion was me being privileged. either way i dont want her to think im blaming her or dont feel bad for her or wont have her back or dont respect her perspective and either way i embarrassed them because we were in public. i dont know why i keep f****** up but im an a****** person
