This isn’t right.
As time is going by, I’ve grown more and more distant from my actual boyfriend and finding myself realising that we’re better off never knowing each other, then recently I’ve been having dreams of being in love with my best-friend who’s at the other side of the globe, hugging her, kissing her and adoring her in every way and it’s… f***… I can’t help but feel awful about having these feelings. I can’t bring myself to say to my actual boyfriend that we should break it off out of fear he’ll end up hating me for my decisions or feel an sense of betrayal, or perhaps try to sabatoge me in the future. And as for my best-friend, well, she means the world to me as well and knowing how bad the last-relationship went with her, y’know, you don’t wanna become the next problem for them.
The only way I could feel us getting closer without her knowing is through our shipping of our characters, so I can replace those characters with us instead and trying to live through an fantasy that’s never bound to happen…
So yeah, there’s my horrible confession.