Hi if your reading this i feel guilty about everything lets start of i have developed feeling for my girl bestfriend and a boy i went to school for 3 years with but he moved i feel like i am more s******* attracted to my girl bestfriend but i wanna spend my life with the boy cause im bi and ik my parents wont support cause they are homophobic i feel like life is so painful cause all the boys i dated used me for noods to j******* to and the boy i like i told him and he only messages when he is h**** i got caught i also told him i dont like doing this he said ‘do you trust me or not’ i am forced to do certain things cause i life in a toxic abusive household im only 13 going to be 14 this is alot i feel suicidal and life is just painful i dont wanna ruin the relationship i have with my girl bff but the boy is leaving me on red for weeks now i am just stuck.