When I was in high school all the kids used to bully me because I had a handicap in my face except for one girl that would hang out with me everyday. We had a great time, but I was such an attention seeker that I had to do something to attract her interest back to me, because she was the only close friend I had and I wanted to have someone to be with at school breaks, instead of sitting alone. So I lied to her that I was suicidal and I would text her in the middle of the night that I’m going to drown myself, just because I was afraid she would potentially bail on me and stop caring. I still feel remorseful when I think how much I impacted her, thinking that my life was depending on her even though I was never even remotely thinking of ending my life. I wish I could text her and tell her the truth, even more than eight years after all this happened, but I don’t have the guts. I just pray that she has forgotten about my existence whatsoever and all this made up drama I created.