I have an extremely difficult time differentiating between my agitation and upset from a situation with the specific people I am surrounded by.
At the beginning of COVID, I didn’t want to believe there was a pandemic. So, when who I was living with at the time was trying to establish the reality of it, instead of being upset by the situation I was upset at them. It wasn’t fair of me to do that.
Even now, I am suffering from flashbacks and reliving those moments of anger and confusion. I really convinced myself that they were trying to manipulate me. When in fact, they were trying to help me and keep us safe.