I have a girlfriend who I have dreamt about having for years but I’ve felt nothing since we got together. I’m starting to crush on my best friend and I would never have a chance with her. I can’t say what I’m feeling since I’ve gotten to used to hiding it. I need to protect people from the world. I need to protect my friends because that’s what I’m there for. I’m changing schools and will be all alone. I don’t want new friends. I need to protect my siblings from my parents but I’m a horrible big sister.