I’m 16 and have s** frequently with my father behind my mother’s back. He tells me that I make him feel better than she does. At first I loved the attention. Now I feel guilty when I see her with him. He texts me when they are about to have s** at night or in mornings. More accurately, when he is going to use her. I sneak down to the bedroom and listen to him f****** her hard. He is gentle with me unless I ask for it that way. He told me that he would be very turned on if I watched a hidden recording of him f****** her. I did and after it started he pulled out his c***. He them asked me to stroke him while we watched. He got really hard and licked like a lollipop while we continued to watch. Honestly, I don’t know what turned me on seeing her getting fucked, but I did. He ended up f****** me doggy before the video ended. I feel guilty, but want more of him and to see what he does to her. Is he making me like this or is it the real me? I was mad at her the other day and asked him to get back at her. That night he took her a** and showed me the tape of her protesting him as he fucked her on her stomach. That sound sge made when she stopped struggling both excites me and sickens me at the same time. I feel bad.