i saw his partner today. i , for the longest time, thought the anguish and the burning writhing pain in my stomach was my feelings for his partner, a close friend of mine. but it never felt right.
lately he’s been flirting. texting, adorning his texts with names and hearts, like little flowers. he’s always so sweet to me. i made plans with him to see him soon.
but when i turn the lights out, when all i find is my own company, he runs rampant in my mind. this stupid f****** prettyboy got into my head, and now he’s the only thing in it.

what i felt for my friend was not love, i realized.
it was jealousy.