After everything I’ve been through. I surely don’t know if I care anymore. Through my life I’ve watched people who claimed they were stronger than me fall into deeper holes. When you say things like that, you deny it doesn’t affect you. Deep down you know it does, why can I keep going. Everyone else keeps crumbling? Don’t ever get me wrong, I am weak my own way. For some reason though, I never got to that point. Hopefully I won’t, at this rate who can tell? The life I’ve lived is not to be envied. Everyday I just keep going, the underlying truth is though. I just don’t want to care, not anymore. I’m tired, I want to rest drift into a dream. Where I can never wake up, my conscience can rest easy. If there is such a thing, I tried to act like I don’t care. I do deep down, there are other people who care less. Maybe that’s my justification? Deep down I want to die, finally get it over with.