I cheated on my wife. I hate that I did it. I hate myself so much right now. I have been living with a stone in my stomach for a week now. On top of that there is a possibility I contracted and sti/std. Last night my wife wanted to have s** and I tried to convince her I wasn’t in the mood, but her hormones have been wild lately and wouldn’t take no for an answer. I’m too much of a coward to tell her the truth, so we had s**. And if I did contract and sti/std then she has it now too. I went to the doctor today to get tested, and I’m afraid of the results. I have no appetite, my anxiety is through the roof. I am scared of the next weeks to come. I feel like I threw my whole life into the garbage. I love her and my family so much, I just wish I could have realized how good I had it before. I don’t know what I was thinking. I’ve decided to quit drinking, I am going to look into AA meetings. We were going to look at new cars with a 3rd row seat to grow our family. Now I’m worried I won’t get to see the kids I have. I’ve ruined everything. I’m sorry. Don’t cheat, it’s not worth it. Especially if you have a good woman who trusts and loves you.