I kinda s***. I lie about everything all the time, I even make up random events or situations in my head to make conversation about. I am also really scarily obsessed with this guy that I love. I don’t even want to be in a relationship with him but I want him to want me so bad. He did at one time, then he moved on and I didn’t. It’s been two years. I catfished him from a fake account that was enticing him s*******, sent the evidence to his girlfriend, and lied to her when she came to me as a friend upset that he cheated. I even used the account again later and faked a conversation with my actual account and made up this whole crazy scenario about this person behind the account and it was me all along. I just did that portion because I felt like it. Not even because I was worried about being caaught. She found out and made the guy in question block me for the sake of their relationship. I just made another account to view his page from, and I stalk it constantly. I am so insanely obsessed with him that I think about him constantly, I dream about him, I fantasize about watching him through his window or cameras, just watching him live. I have no idea why I think and do these things so pathologically, and I know without a doubt that it’s wrong, invasive, obsessive, and with the lying thing, just downright nasty and insane. So I know I’m not delusional. But I have no idea if a person like me, with lying so deeply ingrained in me can change, let alone how to. And even though i know it’s wrong, a selfish part of me doesnt even want to stop. I just want everyone to see my version of reality as their own and have control over it all. I feel awful.