Have you moved on?
Have you found someone to lie next to you?
Has anyone know about your coffee habit? What coffee you drink?
Has anyone know about your habit of waking up too early in the morning after a short sleep?
Has anyone know your love for filmmaking since you were 7?
Has anyone caressed your scar on your tummy?
Has anyone received the kisses you so badly wanted to give to me?
Has anyone touched you before I do? See your lovely blue eyes with their own eyes?
Has anyone called you sayang?
Have you called anyone Sweet Peach, Honey Cakes, Darling Girl, wife-to-be, the Love Of Your Life?
Has anyone can’t stop smiling when they watch you play your guitar?
Has anyone want to cook you kway Teow so badly for you every night every night whenever you want it?
Has anyone crave so much just to touch you?
Has anyone love you as much as I do?
I’m not a terrible person. I’m just broken and damaged. I don’t know if things will ever be normal after this. I don’t see my future without you in it. It’s been three days and I don’t know how to cope with your absence.
Somehow, I knew, one day I’ll be marrying to someone who I don’t love. Because I love you. I’ve seen people walking away from me. And it was meant to be. But you? We had a pure, true love that I believe will never come again.
Why do I always get to be rid of from someone else’s life after loving them so much. I lied, again and again I know and I’m so sorry….I’m not a bad person. I’m not..This is not how it’s supposed to be..I lied because I didn’t want to admit I need affection and I didn’t want to hurt you…I didn’t want to lose you cos I want you. I was ready to jump on a plane to be with you..5 mins talking to you on the phone was all it took to realise that I want to spend the rest of my life with you.. I was about to sacrifice everything for you and us.. cos you’re my soulmate, you’ve accepted me and expected me to change and to be a better person…I’ve been damaged my whole entire life..I thought I was never gonna be normal like everyone else is but you gave me lots of hope. The dream of our family gave me hope that I can do better than this.. that I can be a good genuine decent human being despite my broken past.
Every single feeling I have is all true about you… I don’t lie about my feelings. I can’t imagine you loving someone else, it kills me every time I think of it. Let me come back to your life. Please. Take me away. Let Johan and Layla come into this world. Our pets, Lulu, Buddy, Charlie and Cherry, the whole package, I can’t ask for any better father to my children and to my pets.
Let me live so far away from home so I’m all yours. So I have no one else in my life except you, I don’t care, cos my life is meant to be with you. Paul is gone. He hit me for the first time and it’s over. I learned he was never gonna change. He’s not me, I don’t deserve someone like him, please take that back. I’ve had enough of pain and suffering. I’m only 21. I made mistakes, but I just want you. I want my forever life to be with you in it.. I don’t care when, or how, I will wait for you to forgive and accept me back. You’ve waited for your whole entire life to find The One, so I’m gonna wait for you.
Everyone hates me now, everyone knows, everyone knows I’m suffering and why, most people said I deserve it, Amoy is disappointed in me and hates me even more, the rest told me to give up and move on.. how can I… I will wait for you forever. I’ve been through hell to find you. You can forget about me but I will teach my future children to find a man like you, to be loved by someone like you.
I’ve been listening to your playlist that you made for me every day and every night, I screenshotted the songs before you changed the password, because I love you and I miss you so much … I can’t bear waking up without you in my life, it’s so painful…
I regret the pain I caused you. Let me heal that pain.. my life is about you.. I only see you every time I close and open my eyes .. you can ignore me all you want.. and get on with your life.
I’m pathetic yes, I don’t care. My love and pain are overwhelming. I’ve never felt so alive and so dead at the same time. I get on with my life with the thought of working to get you back To me.
You’ve said you would wait for me forever, so I will wait for you forever. I shouldn’t message you but why not I’ve already lost you but I want you to know I will wait and love you forever. Doesn’t matter who I end up with. My heart will always love you and ready for you.
He hasn’t replied.