My fantasies about the future don’t have my girlfriend in them and it feels so bad to feel so hopeful. I have an interview with a well paying job soon, it’s at my current company and I think I have a very good chance of landing the position. I would suddenly have the income to comfortably live alone, instead of splitting rent with my girlfriend like we’ve done the past 3 years of living together. When I think about moving out of our tiny dark apartment, I don’t picture her in the new place. I want to tour the apartments on my own, buy furniture on my own, take my cat and make my own life as a young woman. She’s been verbally and even physically abusive to me in the past, and even though she is starting now to get help, the fear still stings sometimes in our regular couple arguments. I want her to live a good life, and I think we could even stay friends, but I don’t know if I want her and my bad memories of her in my future apartment.