I’m a 23 year old guy. I think I might have been molested as a kid.

I have pretty uncertain memoiries about it, but I’ve got other signs. for example, I startle really easy, and struggle a lot with touch, especially physical intimacy (I’m a virgin). I have frequent nightmares of being raped, and it’s a fear that occupies a lot of my thoughts.

I’m worried I’m broken. I’m worried I made it all up. I’m especially woried it’s all my fault, that I just
mismanaged my s******** during puberty such that now I feel molested.

I just want to say sorry.