I cheated, the worst kind of cheater, the kind that cheated when her husband left for deployment . I cheated on my husband and I’ll never forgive myself. I haven’t been in a good mental space and put off going back go a psychologist for too long. My husband and I went thru a really rough patch and I spiraled into my depression. On top of that I had a “friend” that was relentlessly trying to convince me to cheat saying “s** is just s**” and “if you dont like it dont do it again” and so much more. Ive known him since 7th grade and trusted him, obviously not anymore…I had plans to visit this friend months in advance and he used this visit to set me up with his friend and while I was there is when I acted on something I could never take back. I knew inside I didnt want to do it, so i got as drunk and as high as I could to not remember what was about to take place and luckily I don’t remember much, but i will never forget the guilt. I hate myself for cheating, i hate myself for not being able to say no, I hate myself for my selfishness, and for hurting the only man that has ever loved me 100% for who i am. Im So sorry..