I’ve lied to and harassed many people of the opposite s** who I called friends in the past and then I’ve either been cut off from those people or I have cut myself off from them. Not saying anything for so long is driving me crazy and has caused me to not allow anyone to really get close to me because I’m afraid to hurt them, even my own spouse and family. In doing so, I continue to hurt everyone around me. To everyone out there who I have wronged and hurt, I am so so sorry. I wish that I could go back and make it better or do things differently.