In school I was never a straight A student, Not because I was dumb but because I was lazy. Unless I had to actually try, to avoid failing, I half assed EVERYTHING. Especially written assignments like BCRs ECRs etc. the only writing assignments I ever got full marks on would be creative writing assignments. Because there was a degree of freedom there. Being forced to write about something I have no interest in.. yeah forget trying. But there was one exception. One that I actually hold dear because it caused a teacher to see that I wasn’t an idiot and that I was leagues smarter than my classmates. I had a history class, with one of THE WORST teachers I’ve ever had. She wasn’t bad at teaching she was just a b****. On my mid terms there was an ECR portion on the test. I not only Aced it, I wrote such a beautiful essay that it caused her to pull me aside and ask me if she could use it as an example as to what an ECR should look like for future students. After I said yes, she asked me an additional question. She asked, if I might pry, why have you never put this much effort into any single one of your writing assignments thus far? I honestly thought you were not smart. To which I replied, well that’s what I guess you get for judging me. Which not only shocked her but made her feel guilty. I elaborated by saying that I hated school and that I didn’t see the point to flaunting my s***. That would only put expectations on me that I didn’t want. The rest of the school year she tried convincing me to enroll in the honors program. And even talked to my other teachers about it and having them also speak into my ear on the subject. It was rather annoying. And it got to the point where I confronted her and told her that what she was doing was the exact reason I never tried. I just want to be. I don’t like having pressure on my shoulders. But looking back I wish I would have taken a different course. I wish I had actually used my skills. Because now I find myself in debt and working at a dead end job. Even though I’m leagues smarter than anyone around me. I wish I wasn’t so f****** lazy.
