I think I’m addicted to p*** and I’m not entirely sure how to stop.
I first watched p*** ever when I was only 8 years old. I started to regularly watch it when I was 10. And now that I’m 19, I spend hours of my limited time searching the web for more to watch. Even when I’m not h**** or trying to be. I used to have an app on my phone that would tell me how much time i spend on all my apps (as to discourage myself, like a “hey look at how much time youre wasting” type thing) and everything else was fairly normal, but I would spend a bare minimum of 3 hours a day just. Watching p***.
It s harder for me to actually get aroused now (doesnt help that I have depression), so I always end up watching more and more videos, each getting progressively weirder/less socially acceptable (if there IS any social acceptable p***)
A while back, I got another app that blocks adult websites, an app that is locked by a password. The first time around, I turned off the app almost immediately, the second time around I made a new password and closed my eyes so I wouldnt know it and couldn’t unlock it again. I stayed away from p*** for maybe a week but then i just ended up deleting the app all together.
I feel like it rules my life. It got so bad that at one point it hurt to m********* because I was doing it so many times in a day. I kind of want to tell my therapist, but also I would rather eat glass than admit this to anyone I know.
Also im a girl btw. Everytime i google to seek some sort of help, I always get articles saying “quit p*** because it gives you erectile dysfunction” but i dont have a d*** so 💁💁 I think thats another reason why I hesitate to get help, people kind of assume p*** addiction doesn’t happen to girls amd when it does, its seen as hot or s*** (which i can guarantee is neither lol. Nothings hot about a fat chick jerking it to some weird s***)