I went to my grandma’s today and my aunt was there. She was about when she told me she had something to talk about with me. I askes her what she wanted to talk about and she guided me outside. She told me that her when her son was staying at my grandma’s, a neighbor of my grandma’s who knows me, told his son that i sended nudes to some guy. When i heard this i was schoked, but i tried to keep a pockerface and tried to act surprised. I told her i shook my head in confusion, but i knew who she meant. I lied to her and told her that i didn’t send nudes before. She believed and told me to never send nudes.
I have sended nudes before and i will always regret it. Even people at my school know I’ve sended nudes before, the guy basically told allot of people i sended nudes. And i feel like my aunt know more than i know and that she probably doesn’t beliefe me.If my dad ever finds out, he will kill me.

I’ve sended allot of nudes in my life and I’m not proud of it. My dad doesn’t give me affection, my mom does tho. But her love is not always enough. And it always felt like there’s something missing in my life.
So the sad thing is because i didn’t get love from my dad, i went looking for love in boys. And boys wanted nothing more than my body, so i gave it to them cuz i thought if they didn’t they would leave, so then i would be back to square one. What i mean with give my body to them, is taking pictures of my body in a bra, and one my private area and no bra (that’s the guy my aunt was talking about. So yeah, hearing that today s****, cuz I’m not like that anymore. And i wanna move on, but idk what to do.