Early twenties- lesbian.
High libido.
Sounds like a dream,
but it’s a nightmare.

The problem?
No matter what we’ve tried,
she just doesn’t have the same
urges that I do.

Always left wanting,
Consistent, though polite,
denial and dismissal still sting like a m***********.

I’m never satisfied.
Admittedly, I’m not used to being turned down.. but it’s been over a year since we last even attempted anything, which by the way,
ended unsuccessfully.
Less than ten times in our five years together…
It just crushes me.

Honestly I sometimes feel crazy.
I’ve done everything I can do,
But she just won’t budge.
..And that’s ok!
It just means I have to redouble my efforts to suppress my s********.
It really hurts..
But less so than risking yet another painful, and expected rejection.
It’s a worthwhile sacrifice if it keeps her in my life.