I felt really bad about my past. All the things I used to do when I was 13 through 22 years old.

I used to send a lot of nudes, talk dirty to strangers online, ask strangers online for nudes and treated everyone terribly.

I have no self control over what I do online and I have no self respect for myself. I also don’t trust myself to be around people and to be in a relationship. I’m a huge mess and I’d rather stay single for the rest of my life than to hurt another person.

I deep down hate myself so much. I want to change and become a better person. I want to get over what I’ve done in the past and move forward. I hate letting the past getting the best of me.

If only if it were that easy to change and to move forward. I hate wallowing in self pity.