I just want my brother in laws cancer to be over with. It’s been consuming the entire extended family for months. No one can make any plans or really be happy about anything, it’s just one miserable day after week after f****** month. He is terminable we all know it now so I’m sorry but I guess I just hope he passes away quickly so I and everyone can get on with life. If there was any hope I wouldn’t feel this way but he is basically a vegetable right now who cannot even eat. I’m a selfish a****** I know! I just don’t care anymore I neec to enjoy life or I’m gonna f****** go crazy and get a w**** and get drunk and explode. F*** everything life s**** !!!!!!!