I feel like I don’t deserve to get help. High functioning depression and whatnot. My life is good, now. I’m still dealing with al that pain, for years, but I’m so good at hiding it. I’m just getting by, I know I could do so much better if I wasn’t so weighed down by this disorder. But I can’t kick it, it’s been with me for nearly a decade, I feel so guilty. Im always on the verge of high risk but never actually there, so people don’t see the pain, I’m always on the bridge but I just look like a passerby and not someone who’s main thought is JUMP. What could I say? That life always feels like s*** but I’m doing fine. Fine fine. Just fine. I’m living enough.
