If I gave all the details about the level of stupid I am dealing with right now, you would all call me a liar. This is the first time in my life I have

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If I gave all the details about the level of stupid I am dealing with right now, you would all call me a liar. This is the first time in my life I have felt truly angry. My bubbly and positive personality has become a seething and cynical one. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t smile, all I do is boil as the arrogant morons around me destroy everything I have built. They can’t be bothered to do the simplest of tasks. I hate them. I f****** hate them. They are taking everything away from me and I am helpless to stop them because they cannot be reasoned with. Well, not entirely helpless… I have to decide if I should keep my morals or my dreams. I crawled from the sewers without dirtying my hands… But I have never felt hate before and, damn, does it whisper conquest into my ear. Are they not beckoning the b**** with their actions?

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I’ve lost my Ego, self respect and dignity. I have nothing own nothing, am nothing but worthy of whatever the bully wishes from me. And what that means is that my life is to be exposed, exhibited. Be degraded daily by my bully so he can get off on his thrills of humiliating me in front of however many or little amount of kids happen to show up. The crowds apparently seem to get bigger as the days go by. My humiliation is becoming acceptance as routine is becoming comfortability. These pre adult children are masters at performing to show angst between disgust and desire. Which adds to the shame. Of what’s being done to me.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.