Two of my friends used to date, the girl is my best friend and the guy is one my closest friend. I still hangout with them, but not with both of them

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Two of my friends used to date, the girl is my best friend and the guy is one my closest friend. I still hangout with them, but not with both of them present though. One time, I went on a camping trip with the guy friend and a few of our close friends. Anyways, on a typical hangout, there is definitely drinking and that is what we did. The guy friend is usually gets drunk easily with a few shots, and at this point I am a little bit tipsy. This is where it all become weird, the guy friend started being all chummy and clingy on me.. which I the tipsy me didn’t mind coz we’re close friends after all, but then it started getting a little bit intimate I guess? Which kinda baffled me at first blaming it naturally on alcohol. He started kissing me on the cheeks and groping my legs, hugging me, kissing my neck and for some apparent reason, we ended up sleeping on the same bed. Hold up, nothing happened because I’m still on the right mind at this point but he definitely tried to go that direction which I firmly refused. So I asked him the next day when he sobered up and apologized for his actions. How should I freaking deal with this? should I tell my bestfriend which is he’s ex too? advices please….

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I’ve lost my Ego, self respect and dignity. I have nothing own nothing, am nothing but worthy of whatever the bully wishes from me. And what that means is that my life is to be exposed, exhibited. Be degraded daily by my bully so he can get off on his thrills of humiliating me in front of however many or little amount of kids happen to show up. The crowds apparently seem to get bigger as the days go by. My humiliation is becoming acceptance as routine is becoming comfortability. These pre adult children are masters at performing to show angst between disgust and desire. Which adds to the shame. Of what’s being done to me.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.