Dexter Update: Though I do miss the attention, I cannot say the same for nearly escaping the threat of becoming a single mother which would have inevitably been my forecast.. Dexter, we are officially over, well (I am). I feel relieved. I watch in movies how the girl get jealous when the guy starts paying attention to some other girl but I dont seem to feel that currently. I’ve always had a bit of difficulty feeling what other people in general seem to be feeling when it involves emotions, but ironically, I feel I the ability to sense the emotions of others. I also watch in movies how the guy pretends to be unaffected but has those short, private moments of staring off into the distance of what could have been that is usually interupted by some inguiring friend, unbeknownst to the inner turmoils of their friend… He still smiles that devilish little smile at me & everything seems the same as it was before just platonic & without communication beyond school grounds but I’m not sure he’s.. content. It was, afterall, the suble shift in demeanour I sensed when I told you what I told you that made me feel the need to beat around the bush, as “straight forward” may be a difficult situtaion for you to playoff at this moment. Your pride, I’m guessing. Whatever the case, Dexter, I bid Thee farwell & hope to never ever, everrr received the threat of your company again.
I will never play with fire again.