I feel like a p**** because my life has been so easy. Ik it’s stupid. So many of my friends have gone through so much like abuse, divorced parents, loss and depression and s*** and there I am with the easy ticket through everything. I feel like a selfish b**** to think this way but I can’t get the feeling out of me. Even as I am writing this down I feel like such an idiot and all the small problems I have are irrelevant and unimportant compared to all the people who go through a lot more than I do and the thing is, is that it’s true. S***’s getting out of hand; I feel like I can’t wait for a relative, parent, sibling or friend to die so that I can feel validated and not like a f****** coward. Next thing you know I feel like a b**** for feeling like a b**** for not going through what they go through. I’m not posting this to try and get affection or concern for everyone cuz thats just gonna make me feel like more of a b**** for making people care about something that is irrelevant; I’m posting this here cuz idk it might help me shut the f*** up and stop being a b****, but one thing I can’t voluntarily change is that i’ll always be a f****** p****. F*** I should shut up who the f*** am I to act like i have f****** problems. I’m a d*** and i’ll always be one until something f****** tragic actually f****** happens in my life then I won’t be such a f****** p****. How dare I act like I have f****** problems. No wonder why I am so ashamed of myself, I deserve to be. Anyone who cares is wasting their time and that’s my fault because I made them know about it by putting it here. F***, what does it matter; this s***’s anonymous anyways so I can put whatever the f*** I want and no one important to me will ever know. Don’t care about me; I don’t want you to. It’ll make me feel more of a p****.

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