I don't know if I'm developing feelings for this guy, but I find myself getting jealous of his real friends because he actually has a connection with them

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I don’t know if I’m developing feelings for this guy, but I find myself getting jealous of his real friends because he actually has a connection with them besides s**. I should clarify, we’re in a consensual friends with benefits relationship. Initially, I thought that was all I wanted from him, but like I said I want to actually be friends with him, hang out for something other than a d*** appointment. But when I’m with him, we have very little to talk about, that may be partly my fault, however, since he actually tries to reach out to me to talk to me about things that interest him. It comes off as a mixed signal when he does that though, you see he has a bit of an ego, so I don’t know if he tells me these things about his life so that we can be better friends, or so that I can admire him. But, he doesn’t reciprocate the interest in my life. The most he’s asked about my own life is about my schooling and when my brother broke his spine, probably out of politeness before we “got down to business”. He does butter me up, but I don’t know if it’s because he genuinely feels those things and it comes naturally to him to want to compliment me, or if it’s because he thinks that’ll make it easier to get into my pants. Maybe he just thinks it’s the more gentleman thing to do, or he does like to compliment to set the mood and express his desire for me in a sweeter way. I know I’m not a 10/10, but he’s into me. Maybe it’s because I say “yes” to him. I don’t know. I’m a fairly capable and intelligent girl, but with him I feel like I have to dumb myself down. He also says things that both include me and exclude me, maybe he’s also confused. We’ve known each other for a while, during which there was some drama involving both our then partners(now exes) and lost contact until last year. I don’t know if he’s like ME since then or just my body. We have fantastic physical chemistry, we’re both motivated individuals, and decently attractive people, although he is more outgoing than I am and therefore has more opportunities for potential partners as well as just plain old friends. I feel as though I don’t fit into his world, even if I wanted to be a part of it, which at this point I don’t know. Like with any relationship, we could make it work, if I had the guts to be myself off of a phone call or text, we would be pretty compatible, but as of now were in separate spheres and we only collide for a taste of the carnal. Be clear, dammit, what do you want?! If all you want is s**, tell me and don’t play with my softer, emotional side. Or give me more slack if you do want to be sweet with me, don’t back away when I do it, I’m not going to put you in a love-trap, I swear. Maybe I should be clearer, too.

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My daughters boyfriends uncles grabbed me coming out the door. They pushed me into a nice Escalade and told me were going for a ride. They took me to this place far away from anywhere if they chose to they could kill me and no one would find me. I was threatened by the kid he told me about his uncles and what they could do. I was scared shitless. Wondering what was in their mind. They told me they heard the stories and they were disappointed. These guys were muscular they worked out they were threatening figures. We arrived at a house away past the Forrest. Behind the mountains. Real high up. We went into a closed private room with a tv set and a couple of seats. Through his phone he set up a double chat with his nephew and my daughter was with him. They talked as they explained I was there with them and they would get to see everything that’s about to happen.
They told me to strip, socks and all.
They then cuffed my arms on the wall spread apart and same with my legs. They detailed my hole body part for part degrading in verbal abuse every failure compared to their chilled perfections as men. My daughter was watching all this abuse I was experiencing as her boyfriend kept telling her baby this is for you, payback for him bathing you and touching you when you were younger. It’s your turn to watch him suffer for what he did to you. They took off the cuffs and beat the s*** out of me wrestling style, made me go through holds of pain and suffering, total humiliation. Manhandling galore. Super exhibition galore. They totally humiliated my a**. When done they let my daughter talk. Dad you know what you did was worthy of this compared to getting killed. I still love you dad I told them not to they wanted to. All I could say was I deserved it. Then thanked her. Later on I’d see her in person not knowing if I could find the guts to show my face after an experience like that.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.