I keep thinking about a thing i did as a kid. For some reason I would do sexual jokes with a younger boy, because I thought it was funny. I would teach

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I keep thinking about a thing i did as a kid.
For some reason I would do s***** jokes with a younger boy, because I thought it was funny.
I would teach him dirty things without him knowing about it, but one time I actually touched my naked c*** onto his naked b*** to explain what ”s**” was.

A part of me says I shouldn’t feel guilty about it because I was a kid and I was basically a retard and didn’t know any better. Another part of me feels guilty as s***, i keep thinking i did somekind of child abuse.

I never did something like that ever again, and to this day i try my best to be the best person i can be. I’m an adult now with a background on helping adults and children alike (I’m a kindergarden teacher). But to this day I have a extremely low self-esteem and I try to think why I think I’m such a garbage human being, because like many people say to me, i have no reason to think i’m not a great person.

So I really don’t know, i just really need to hear it. Do you guys think what I did is something trivial that can be forgiven?

New Confession

My daughters boyfriends uncles grabbed me coming out the door. They pushed me into a nice Escalade and told me were going for a ride. They took me to this place far away from anywhere if they chose to they could kill me and no one would find me. I was threatened by the kid he told me about his uncles and what they could do. I was scared shitless. Wondering what was in their mind. They told me they heard the stories and they were disappointed. These guys were muscular they worked out they were threatening figures. We arrived at a house away past the Forrest. Behind the mountains. Real high up. We went into a closed private room with a tv set and a couple of seats. Through his phone he set up a double chat with his nephew and my daughter was with him. They talked as they explained I was there with them and they would get to see everything that’s about to happen.
They told me to strip, socks and all.
They then cuffed my arms on the wall spread apart and same with my legs. They detailed my hole body part for part degrading in verbal abuse every failure compared to their chilled perfections as men. My daughter was watching all this abuse I was experiencing as her boyfriend kept telling her baby this is for you, payback for him bathing you and touching you when you were younger. It’s your turn to watch him suffer for what he did to you. They took off the cuffs and beat the s*** out of me wrestling style, made me go through holds of pain and suffering, total humiliation. Manhandling galore. Super exhibition galore. They totally humiliated my a**. When done they let my daughter talk. Dad you know what you did was worthy of this compared to getting killed. I still love you dad I told them not to they wanted to. All I could say was I deserved it. Then thanked her. Later on I’d see her in person not knowing if I could find the guts to show my face after an experience like that.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.