TLDR- Part of me is in love with my older half sisters, would date/marry if I could. Grew up apart, met in late teens, had weird GSA. All of us are fine now.
I am super attracted to my older half sisters, we’re in our mid 30s. One is 5 yrs older than me and the other is 3 yrs older than me (We’ll call them OO Older Older and OY Older Younger). OO kind of looks like Terry Farrell or Jen Connelly and YO like Nicole de Boer, so they’re pretty. We weren’t raised together, we didn’t really meet until our late teens. The three of us have a strange chemistry (almost s***** tension) with eachother. We have shared a couple awkward/borderline inappropriate moments over the years, mostly with OO but a couple more subtle ones with YO. These mostly occured during our early 20s.
We’ve kissed, hugged, and held each other longer than we should have and in ways we shouldn’t have, both OO and YO. Things balanced out, we all got married or saw other people but when I get together with either of them for too long especially if alcohol is involved we start to get touchy and flirty with eachother. We did a good job keeping it subtle. An uncle noticed one year and pulled all three of us aside and told us to check it before we wreck it.
My spouse looks like them…almost could be their sister. The type of woman I am attracted to are my older sisters. A part of me loves them and would very much love to be with them. OO mentioned she would reciprocate if she could in a conversation years later. Clearly we can’t because its illegal, amoral, asocial, would ruin Christmas, etc. We’ve never crossed any hard lines. We always stopped short of making real mistakes.
At present we’re ok, normal half-sibling relationship. It’s for the better overall but there is still the small tension we have to watch out for. Cest la Vie right?