I recently broke up with my gf of 4 years. We were both in love with each other but there were too many issues and I think its mostly because of me. A lot of issues came from her insecurity and it turned into other issues. She wasn’t like that at first but i did things or did do enough of some things to make her feel insecure and like i didn’t love her that much. At first we had a lot of s** but i died down. We rarely had s** but only because I turned her down. I think maybe me showing i have no desire for her or doing things like liking other girls pictures that were revealing, and messaging an old gf behind her back all happened because of my p*** addiction. She didn’t know that and I never told her cause that’s embarrassing. I didn’t even know till like last year. I had the p*** addiction before i even met her. I watched p*** at least twice a day and it just cause me to not want to have s** and I guess I was so used to how the girls are in p*** videos that I expected my gf to react like them but she didn’t so it would turn me off. Sometimes I would have s** with her because I was very in the mood. I messaged an ex behind her back but while we were on a break because I was looking to have s** with her because she would react girls in p***. My ex did moan and I did make her have orgasms but she wasn’t the type to make noises and talk dirty and moan loud. Also it got to the point where I would just think about p*** and couldn’t go without a day without p***. I don’t know if I should confess that to her. We are already broken up and I do need to work on myself and im getting better. I have watched p*** in like 3 weeks. I feel better but i still feel guilty and bad.