It’s the first time I got an F on my test and I’ve planned to tell them about my re-test rather than my original test.
The loneliness the pain. the regret. the sadness. the depression. It doesn’t get better. worst year in a long time…with 3 months left I doubt I can right the ship.
Talk anout regretting on top of guilt. Ex wife was worried about what was going on after she sthpidly started trying to xontact the s** ciach/coordinator to f*** her again. She was burning me up with texts and calls. I finally told her the short form of what happened punitively and she at first sisnt seem to care. All she wantes to talk about waa him f****** her again. Welcome to the latest reason this is all so toxic. That while i had arranged it the whole mess was going to make it where i have no s***** outlet at all and only my body had paid the price for her obsession about this man f****** her again. That at least caught her attention. I tols her the bruises will take days or over a week to fade and j was still in serious pain. She kept asking and i told her i was not going to send her video she would have to aee wgat i meant in person. Conflicting for me because of pain anger and motive and pretty sure ahe only wants to see the video for the kick of it. Atm i could care if she comes over or sees it or i end up celibate bc of her.
