I have a older brother that’s 18, I’m his little sister that’s going to turn 15 in a month. me and my brother would fight all the time, we still do, and just now when him and my mother were fighting/arguing I heard my bother say something that made me feel like I’m the reason why he is the way he is, a disrespectful a******. I told him the other day when he was trying to hug me that his touch was gross, he was gross. when the fight started to settle down I heard him cry saying how everyone in the house hatted him and that he was too far to redeem himself and that he tried one time… but… we (his sisters) kept saying crap to him, so he gave up trying to be nice. I heard him cry and I started to cry as well cause I knew this was mostly my fault… If i wasn’t like that to him and just been a little nicer… even now I’m still crying so sorry. I told him that he was the reason my life is a living hell and why I’m the way I am. And you may be thinking that “wow what a b*tch!” or “just go make up with him already!!! god!” but for me its not that easy, i can’t just go up to him and hug him and say I’m sorry over and over and be done with it; After all I already told him he lost me and is losing the rest of his family. But… i really am sorry for everything ive done, said, and acted. I’m sorry for making you miserable and have a horrid life. if I wasn’t born or died when i was just born would probably make your life better then it was “this”, or if i was reborn and had this life’s memory i would have treated you better and help you through things and everything else. i would have always been on your side and made you feel happy everyday. sorry i cant do that now nor ever cause its too late to turn back, i’m sorry i dont have the power to do anything but be like i am…. i really am…. sorry….
