Sometimes I want to end it all and die. The pain is overbearing but I can't leave my two little babies without a mother. By all accounts I have a good

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Sometimes I want to end it all and die. The pain is overbearing but I can’t leave my two little babies without a mother. By all accounts I have a good life, a good husband and two children that are the love of my life.
I have extra martial s** all the time and it is a vicious circle. I crave having s** with other men to the point where I’m obsessed then after I do it I get depressed and have suicidal thoughts for being a terrible wife and parent. I love my husband but I love cheating on him. I love having flings, affairs and the thrill being unfaithful. I hate myself for this. I’m not sure how long I can survive with this guilt. I don’t know why I am like this or what is wrong with me.

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I pay hung rentboys to whip my b*** and tell me I have a small d***. I can’t put this in the ‘guilt’ category because I really enjoy it.

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I used to go online, find girls to have online relations with. I was a teenager. It started from the start of high school, when I was 15. At worst was F, that was my bottom barrel. It was gross. I don’t know how old she was but she was younger. It was near the end, during the pandemic. I was older, she was younger. I don’t know how much younger, but I was 16 I think. She was younger. Like 2 or 3 years younger, I dunno? It was gross of me. I regret doing it but I fear my regret isn’t because of how I hurt someone, took advantage. They were ok with it in the moment, we were both on the same hookup site. But I was gross. No question about it. There was T too but that was a 16-18 age gap. I deleted the accounts. I was just gross.