I cheated on my wife. I feel awful about it, I pray for forgiveness.
My wife and I have agreed that I wear a chastity cage to surpress my urges. She is generally not interested in s** but does have a substantial d**** collection. The ones she told me to throw out, I kept in secret. Last night I used them when she was at a work event. I felt so embarrassed and even worse I really liked the feeling. I’m not sure what to do now. I can’t tell my wife because maybe she will think it’s weird, hell even I think it’s weird. But it felt so good, I understand why she has them and that she does not want a smaller and less hard p****
Talk anout regretting on top of guilt. Ex wife was worried about what was going on after she sthpidly started trying to xontact the s** ciach/coordinator to f*** her again. She was burning me up with texts and calls. I finally told her the short form of what happened punitively and she at first sisnt seem to care. All she wantes to talk about waa him f****** her again. Welcome to the latest reason this is all so toxic. That while i had arranged it the whole mess was going to make it where i have no s***** outlet at all and only my body had paid the price for her obsession about this man f****** her again. That at least caught her attention. I tols her the bruises will take days or over a week to fade and j was still in serious pain. She kept asking and i told her i was not going to send her video she would have to aee wgat i meant in person. Conflicting for me because of pain anger and motive and pretty sure ahe only wants to see the video for the kick of it. Atm i could care if she comes over or sees it or i end up celibate bc of her.
