I was molested by my grandfather. i would sleep over at his house alot usually twice a week. He was nice to me until his wife died he kinda closed off for awhile. when i was 6 something changed again and he wanted me back over. i was so excited but after awhile i just remember not wanting to go there anymore and my parents saying i had to go and i would cry alot. My dreams started when I first had s**, and i started remembering why i didn’t want to go to his house anymore. because he did, things that make me feel pretty terrible and freak out when i have s** now. especially with my ex because he was a guy and just reminds me of him, we broke up because i wouldn’t tell him why i didn’t want s** a second time. I think it stopped when i was 9, i don’t know why it stopped but he still comes to family reunions. and when i sleep i remember more things and i just don’t want to remember anything else. I had a really bad dream, a few days ago which involved whipped cream, g******* and “just lick it off like ice cream” so now i avoid sleeping all together.