Forgive father I have sinned , I don’t know exactly how long ago I confessed last but I am guessing it has been around 40 years . I feel terrible about this and I am ashamed , this is not the way I was raised .

I broke so many commandment over the years , I am violent with animals , I killed a bird but I didn’t mean to but I still did it . I love animals so much but my behaviour with them is out of control sometimes , slapping them , kicking them or throwing them .
I have committed adultery several times , I have been with prostitutes or taken advantage of desperate women trying to make money .
I have been a bad son , stealing money from my mother when I was younger , I have disrespected both my mother and father , saying profanities to both of them .
I have been extremely selfish , not contacting my mother , my family when I should have . I don’t know how to reach out to them . I am so ashamed .
I am just a bad person in general , I am not patient with people and say rude things many times .I have not been a good employee nor a boss at work . Stealing money that wasn’t mine .
I have been thinking about suicide so many times but I dont do it not because I am a coward not because of my family I would leave behind.
I lied many times , I called the name of god in vain , blaming for things that went wrong in life .
I want to be better , please god , give me the strength to be better and to find happiness.
I am so sorry for all the wrong I did to other people . Amen !