I tell myself there’s a man in my head so I can ignore the fact that I want to kill the people I love. And I hate myself for it, I want to kill myself so

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I tell myself there’s a man in my head so I can ignore the fact that I want to kill the people I love. And I hate myself for it, I want to kill myself so I can’t kill them, but if I kill myself I fear my brother who’s been suffering from depression may do the same. I don’t know how that would leave my parents. I tell my therapist I believe her when she says it’s my ocd giving me a hyper sense of responsibility for my fleeting thoughts, but that’s a lie too.

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