I hate my “friend”, I’ll call her Lila. She always does flirtatious and romantic guestures towards me JUST because my other friend shipped us together (we’re both girls and my other friend watches a lot of girlxgirl). Lila takes it to the next level though, trying to kiss me when I’ve frequently told her no and touching me inappropriately. But she doesn’t have many friends and claims she is depressed, wants to kill herself, and hates herself at any moment she can (I know it’s a big claim, but I feel like she’s faking it. I feel at most it would be bipolar disorder). She sometimes asks me to marry her and when I say no she always responds “But I’m gay.”. She’s also very rude and violent, throwing chairs at people (on occasion), hitting others (common), and kicking them (common). I’ve also seen her elbow a child in the head very hard, the kid was 5 and she hit him because the boy was hugging her. Lila also frequently insults everyone, especially one of my friends that she hates. If you ask Lila if she hates that person, she’ll say yes and go on a rant about why. This friend and Lila have history of hating each other 4 years ago but this year and last she didn’t do anything remotely mean to her. She was insulted me and hit me before my “otaku friend” shipped us. I hate it. She won’t respect my boundaries. I don’t want to leave her because I don’t want to be on my own and she doesn’t have many other friends. I’m also friends with her childhood friend which moved away. We have a group chat together and if I leave Lila, her childhood friend won’t talk to me. I’m also afraid of being alone. All my other friends don’t really like her either. I feel guilty for hating her and not wanting to be her friend. I’m already known for being her friend so I don’t know how it’ll affect my reputation. I know it’s selfish that I only want to be her friend so I can keep good relationships with people and a good reputation. I have no excuse. I know this.