I am a 17 year old girl finally discovering who I am. It took such a long time to finally love myself. Here's the problem tho. My parents are really

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I am a 17 year old girl finally discovering who I am. It took such a long time to finally love myself. Here’s the problem tho. My parents are really religious… I am afraid of being myself around them. I am afraid that they are going to be disappointed in me. I am afraid that God himself will cast me into hell for liking certain things. I am afraid that being the real me will bring extreme consequences. My friends support me but I doubt them because I am Christian. I can’t accept that another human being is giving me advice that I should live how I want. I want God to tell me Himself that it is okay. I want to live my life but its so hard. I love listening to Joji and hip hop but I am not supposed to. I curse everyday but I am not supposed to…I want to go to places but I can’t…My mom was critizing my best friend believing she is a hoe. My mom doesn’t like my friends. I am friends with an atheist and I am not supposed to. I like being dirty and I am not supposed to. My mom kept critizing me and telling me she wasn’t like that when she was my age. She keeps forgetting I am not her. I want to go on late night drives but I can’t…. Everyday that fear is growing. Everytime I go to church I can’t help but feel the guilt deep down. I want to say something but I can’t seem to get the words out at all…

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