My girlfriend killed herself 4 years ago. Even after all this time the feeling and guilt hasn't passed. I feel so lonely and useless. Everyone thinks I'm

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My girlfriend killed herself 4 years ago. Even after all this time the feeling and guilt hasn’t passed. I feel so lonely and useless. Everyone thinks I’m this happy go lucky person but in reality its a facade to decieve myself. I long for affection, not even s*****, just stuff like holding hands, being with someone, appreciating their company and all that s***

I started to hit it off with this girl a couple months back. I really thought we had chemistry and started to develop feelings for her. Part of me wanted to tell her, but part of me held me back. I opened up to her and told her about my last relationship, and started to cry in her arms. I thought I could trust her but ever since then she hasn’t texted me and when I text her she gives one word responses.

I’m tired of living this life. I’m only 20 a sophomore in college. I feel like I’m trapped in a room with chains on my body screaming for help, but the only thing I get back are my own echos.

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Bitchez call me assholee smurf
Cuz the way I wipe my asss like it’s astro turf

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