I feel bad for calling child protective services on my Boyfriend’s ex wife. She has threatened to kill herself in front of her four kids and they have already suffered enough. I love those kids, and I’ve tried to convince myself that I should not care for what happens with them with their mother because they should be in the safest place in the world, but they lost a lot this year. I don’t want them to see that. I should hate her, despite all that she’s said about me. I don’t, I want her to do better. I feel guilty for loving too hard.