I’m what humanity hates. I’m a lowlife abuser of both animals and my family at times. It starts by me getting angry, if there is a nearby cat, or even dog. I either beat them or choke them. One time, I even took a lizard and brought it to my cat to kill. I wasn’t angry that time, I did it for my own amusement. With my family, my sibling is my main victim. When I too mad I hit them. I verbally abuse them. All these things make me hate myself, to the point where I think of running away or even killing myself. It causes me to constantly dream about being murdered, or horribly hurt. I deserve it. I have tried to stop, and I haven’t abused anyone in a few months now. (Before you say anything, I cannot distance myself from my sibling because they will only be sad.They confronted me about being abusive one time, and I decided to distance myself. They only began to cry and told me that they rather be hurt than not see me.)