I did something really bad when I was 11 or maybe 12. I used to babysit my cousin and one time I touched him.i watch p*** and masturbated a lot before that. I had been s******* curious since I was 4 or 5 when I was watching 101 Dalmatians. There were two boys and they told me to go on the bed and we touched each other and from that moment on things were so different for me. I don’t remember what it was like to be innocent. I stole someone’s innocence and it’s killing me inside as it should . I’m also a Christian which is f****** ridiculous. I’m just so lost I don’t know what is happening. What is the point of anything. I don’t know. It wouldn’t be the worst thing if I just died. If you want you can pray for me. Please pray for my little cousin I want him to be okay I’m such an idiot. Why did I do that. I love him so much. He looked up to me. I loved him I love him . He’s my family. He’s an innocent little kid. I ruined his life.
