I am in love with my partner, but I am having unexpectedly strong feelings for someone else, someone from my past.
It feels so good when I’m with him. I feel alive, free, vibrant, strong, s***, whole.
I don’t want to f*** up my relationship, which is very fulfilling and healthy, and I don’t want to f*** up this potential friendship with this wonderful person.
But I can’t help thinking of him. He’s clever, and he speaks to me like I’m a treasure.
I haven’t had s** with my boyfriend in the last few days, but I’ve been getting off to the thought of this other man.
I know that it would be intense between us, and amazing.
I hate myself for even thinking about it.