My boyfriend and I have been on and off for 5 years. Around 6 months ago we were not talking to each other and I ran into his ex-roommate at a bar. We talked about stuff, found out that both of us weren’t with our partners anymore and complained about their actions. We were both still angry at them and felt hurt.

So we slept together. I was so angry at my ex that I wanted to hurt him even if he never really found out. I wanted that leverage in my mind. The best way was to sleep with his old roommate.

But then we reconciled. We got back together and this time things are going really well. He wants to move in together and says he finally knows that im the one. We talk about the future like a definite.

I love him. I really do. I feel like s*** for doing that. It’s literally eating at me. I know he’d never talk to me ever again if he knew and everything would be ruined. I can’t tell him. I can’t lose him to this terrible mistake I made in anger.

So here it is. My biggest secret. The biggest shame of my life. Out to strangers because I can’t carry it myself. I know I’m a terrible person but know that I would do anything to take it back.